Once upon this life that I do live,
a Savior sought to cleanse my sin.
A true life he offered to this hollow shell,
redemption from the punishment of hell.
To this man I said not a thing,
yet he loved me and suffered all the same.
“I love you,” this man said to I,
but revilement and scorn lit my eye.
I looked toward the tree this man clung too,
and said “Come down if your claims be true.”
He held fast to the tree with his dying breath,
without any want to relieve his stress.
“He dies for you,” shouted an echo in my mind.
I spat, mocking in his face, and then he died.
There was no doubt that he truly loved me,
but do I love him, it remains to be seen.
My love for the flesh comes before him at times,
and since it does, can I be free from crimes?
The lust in me has overtaken me tonight,
nothing I say can make this wrong right.
My actions show where my loyalties lie,
Father change my heart lest I die.
old men sometimes forget how to cry
I hope as we grow older
we can remember this godforsaken future
and steer as far away as possible
I want to forever be able
to feel the build up of sorrow or happiness
as it crawls slowly up every single vertebrae in our backs
closer and closer to our throats
as our carnal and spiritual and natural have an afternoon tea
and translate into sweet, salty, bitter
and slowly the electricity building up in the air as though a storm
H2O builds around our dirt and forms
raindrops of acceptance
traveling down the backroads of our faces
and leaving without even saying goodbye
so darling as we grow older
never forget these tears that need to come
for where would we be without a nice long journey
every once in a while?
Living in a world
Where minds are all unique
Walks of life inhale the same air
But exhale different smoke
With age as experience
Life as creativity
The world as our drawing boards
Past mistakes do we ignore
Dreams we are imagining
Ideals we are innovating
The future we are taking
And care not for its own
Cause we live in a world
That knows not the fear
Of hurt or wrongdoing
But by ingenuity that’s soothing
Into my empty head there come
a cotton beach, a dock wherefrom
I set out, oily and nude
through mist, in chilly solitude.
There was no line, no roof or floor
to tell the water from the air.
Night fog thick as terry cloth
closed me in its fuzzy growth.
I hung my bathrobe on two pegs.
I took the lake between my legs.
Invaded and invader, I
went overhand on that flat sky.
Fish twitched beneath me, quick and tame.
In their green zone they sang my name
and in the rhythm of the swim
I hummed a two-four-time slow hymn.
I hummed “Abide With Me.” The beat
rose in the fine thrash of my feet,
rose in the bubbles I put out
slantwise, trailing through my mouth.
My bones drank water; water fell
through all my doors. I was the well
that fed the lake that met my sea
in which I sang “Abide With Me.”
Alfred, Lord Tennyson
Sunset and evening star,
And one clear call for me!
And may there be no moaning of the bar,
When I put out to sea,
But such a tide as moving seems asleep,
Too full for sound and foam,
When that which drew from out the boundless deep
Turns again home.
Twilight and evening bell,
And after that the dark!
And may there be no sadness of farewell,
When I embark;
For tho’ from out our bourne of Time and Place
The flood may bear me far,
I hope to see my Pilot face to face
When I have crossed the bar.
Imagine you wake up
with a second chance: The blue jay
hawks his pretty wares
and the oak still stands, spreading
glorious shade. If you don’t look back,
the future never happens.
How good to rise in sunlight,
in the prodigal smell of biscuits—
eggs and sausage on the grill.
The whole sky is yours
to write on, blown open
to a blank page. Come on,
shake a leg! You’ll never know
who’s down there, frying those eggs,
if you don’t get up and see.
W. S. Merwin
In the morning as the storm begins to blow away
the clear sky appears for a moment and it seems to me
that there has been something simpler than I could ever
simpler than I could have begun to find words for
not patient not even waiting no more hidden
than the air itself that became part of me for a while
with every breath and remained with me unnoticed
something that was here unnamed unknown in the days
and the nights not separate from them
not separate from them as they came and were gone
it must have been here neither early nor late then
by what name can I address it now holding out my thanks
Before I began life this time
I took a crash course in Counter-Intelligence
Once here I signed in, see name below, and added
Some words remembered from an earlier time,
“The intention of the organism is to survive.”
My earliest, & happiest, memories pre-date WW II
They involve a glass slipper & a helpless blue rose
In a slender blue single-rose vase: Mine
Was a story without a plot. The days of my years
Folded into one another, an easy fit, in which
I made money & spent it, learned to dance & forgot, gave
Blood, regained my poise, & verbalized myself a place
In Society. 101 St. Mark’s Place, apt. 12A, NYC 10009
New York. Friends appeared & disappeared, or wigged out,
Or stayed; inspiring strangers sadly died; everyone
I ever knew aged tremendously, except me. I remained
Somewhere between 2 and 9 years old. But frequent
Reification of my own experiences delivered to me
Several new vocabularies, I loved that almost most of all.
I once had the honor of meeting Beckett & I dug him.
The pills kept me going, until now. Love, & work,
Were my great happinesses, that other people die the source
Of my great, terrible, & inarticulate one grief. In my time
I grew tall & huge of frame, obviously possessed
Of a disconnected head, I had a perfect heart. The end
Came quickly & completely without pain, one quiet night as I
Was sitting, writing, next to you in bed, words chosen randomly
From a tired brain, it like them, suitable, & fitting.
Let none regret my end who called me friend.
All that I serve will die, all my delights,
the flesh kindled from my flesh, garden and field,
the silent lilies standing in the woods,
the woods, the hill, the whole earth, all
will burn in man’s evil, or dwindle
in its own age. Let the world bring on me
the sleep of darkness without stars, so I may know
my little light taken from me into the seed
of the beginning and the end, so I may bow
to mystery, and take my stand on the earth
like a tree in a field, passing without haste
or regret toward what will be, my life
a patient willing descent into the grass.
I take a seat in the third row
and catch the eulogies. It’s sweet
to see old friends, some I don’t know.
I wear a tie, good shoes, and greet
a stranger with a kiss. It’s bliss
for an insecure guy to hear
deep words. I’ll live on them, not miss
a throb, and none of us will fear
the night. There are no tears, no sad
faces, no body or sick word
of God. I sing, have a warm chat
with friends gone sour, wipe away bad
blood. And sweet loves? I tell a bird
to tip them off. Then tip my hat.